Saturday, May 24, 2008

The Dark Side

So, I've been keeping a little secret from y'all. Well, all 2 of you that I haven't already told. Because I'm about as good as a 4 year old at keeping secrets. Five weeks ago I started Weight Watchers.

Yes, I know, some of you think I've joined the Dark Side. However you feel about it, that's great, but it's working for me. And from time to time, I may blog about it. Because right now? At the beginning of this exploration into the great unknown? Learning how to take care of myself in the food department is a bit distracting. In fact, I would use the term all-consuming.

I had a pretty good idea about how the program works, so I chose to join online. Because, contrary to what you might think about the way I air all of my laundry right here on the world wide web, I'm a pretty private person. At least when it comes to my weight issues. I want to be in control of which person knows what details. The idea of going to a meeting just isn't my thang. So one early Saturday morning, I jumped in online with both feet, and I've haven't looked back since.

I'm loving it! It really isn't rocket science. For me, I've realized that I know much more about a healthy lifestyle than I thought I did. Call me crazy, but for the longest time I thought there were these great diet tips that I just wasn't privy to. I kept watching the news and reading magazines hoping to pick up on the golden nugget of truth that would make me drop a few pounds.

Over the past few weeks I've learned that there really isn't some great mystery that only skinny people know. I just needed something to get me to doing all of those healthy things I already knew at the same time and with some consistency. I'm watching, meaning literally writing down and being very aware of every bite I take, what I eat. I'm stopping when I've had enough. I'm weighing my options and making choices about the food I eat instead of just eating everthing I'm in the mood for. I'm making decisions to be more physically active.

This journey has already made me a better person. Along the way, I've become so thankful for the life that I have. I have a wonderful husband, 3 beautiful, healthy kids, enough money to pay the bills, and good friends to share it all with. My life isn't nearly as stressful as I tell myself it is as I put away the sugar cookies and brownies. I don't need to reward myself with a whole entire basket of chips and queso to know that I'm a good mom. And even if I don't feel like cooking, I can still eat at my favorite restaurants and have my favorite foods, just a little less of the food than normal.

And slowly, my normals are changing. My attitude is brighter and my taste buds are adjusting. It's a process, but I'm in it for the long haul.

4 comments:

Ronda said...

way to go, Jenni. i'm one of two you didn't tell. i'll pray for you in this (as well as other stuff).
Love you still,

Cindy-Still His Girl said...

I'm so proud of you! :) But I am mad that you are going to be all skinny in Aug when I see you. :) I've been working out consistantly but my butt doesn't know it.

I loved this part, "My life isn't nearly as stressful as I tell myself it is as I put away the sugar cookies and brownies."

javamamma said...

Congrats!

Kim said...

Good for you!

My mom always had great results with Weight Watchers. Whenever she would stop going she would put weight back on. After a few months she would go back and drop the weight again. It just seemed to be the only thing that worked for her, and she couldn't do it on her own.

I hope you have good results. I have got to start doing something myself. I ate like 1000 calories over what i should have today alone!!!

Kim @ TheBitterBall